• Mood: hungry
• Music: Pink - Family Portrait

Can we be a family?

I hate this!! I hate this!! I hate this!! My parents are fighting again. And I feel like if I talk to one over the other that I am taking sides. Thus, is the way of the only child. So we didn't all eat dinner together tonight and my mom is thinking of not coming home tomorrow, what does this mean? I hate when they fight and don't talk because then I am like the mediator between the two telling one what the other says. No child, I know i'm not one anymore, should have to put up with that crap. As I know espicially that orcapotter might remember was when I was so happy that my parents didn't talk for months when I was in 9th grade. I was so happy b/c I thought maybe they would get a divorice and all this would be over. No kid ever wishes that their parents seperate but I did. Now, I don't know anymore. I can't wait to get out of this house, but I know I can't afford it.

You fight about money, bout me and my brother (<--don't have one but it works)
And this I come home to, this is my shelter.

You may all know how my mom goes around hugging everyone when she sees them. She was always the coolest mom. Well I hated it. I even told her to stop it. I felt like everyone liked my mom and I was just the package deal. She hugs everyone else but not me. I never get hugged. People are always giving other people hugs, but it's stange for me. We never hug in my family. So I often back off and don't know what to do. I don't know how to hug. But now everyone wants to hug evryone, and I want to feel the love to so I am trying to hug. I just need a hug I guess.

It ain't easy growin up in World War III
Never knowin what love could be, you'll see
I don't want love to destroy me like it has done
my family

I ate so fast to just get back in my room, that I am currently starving. I don't know what to do. We don't have a lot of snacky foods in the house. I'm hungry.